This past week was incredibly exhausting. My parents have been consulting realtors so we had to do a deep-clean of the house on Monday. The kids at work have seemed more challenging than normal this week. Then my Pixel 2 smartphone decided to quit on me Wednesday afternoon. Because my phone wasn’t due an upgrade until December, I needed purchase a new one without the option of financing it (which means stretching the payments out interest-free).
Luckily I could afford it and not entirely break the bank, but it has affected my economic freedom to a certain degree. I likely won’t be picking up fast food anymore or buying any new clothes/books soon. Also I likely won’t be upgrading my blog, as I had originally been planning this month. At least not for a little while.
Rounding out the week, I had to say goodbye to Apollo, my 12-year-old German Shepherd, who was a very big part of our family. I’m very glad I started and wrote most of this post yesterday before I learned this morning would be his last. It’s been rough. My eyes have been red and puffy all day. Generally I like to put a positive spin on weeks that are challenging, but right now I just want to linger in my despair for a little bit.
- The Assassination of Giani Versace. Instead of reading, I’ve been watching the second season of Ryan Murphy’s American Crime Story anthology series this week. It’s been one I’ve eagerly anticipated after discovering Cody Fern last fall, where he played Michael Langdon on AHS: Apocalypse. I also remember that this season had been critically acclaimed, so I was excited. I totally understand where the hype came from; Darren Criss was so good in this role as a psychopathic serial killer. But it was also a little underwhelming. Nothing surprised me story-wise after a certain point, so I felt like I was on a steadily rising rollercoaster to nothing.
- The new (to me) iPhone 8. I touched on this above, but I didn’t really talk about how annoying this entire situation was. This smartphone is a major downgrade from the Pixel 2. The camera can’t compare. It also feels clunkier, less user-friendly, and slower than the Pixel 2. The only positive is that I was able to sync back up with my last iPhone 6, so I now have easy access to my old photos from 2+ years ago. I also think the sound might be slightly better…
- My six-month evaluation. I’ve never had a job for longer than six months, so this was my first employee evaluation. I wasn’t aware it was coming up, and I’m glad I wasn’t so I wouldn’t be anxious leading up to it. It went fine; I received no bad marks. My main disappointment is I don’t get a raise until after my NEXT evaluation, which is unlikely to happen because I don’t see myself being here for another six months.
- Job interview. On Friday I had a job interview with my local school district for a clerical assistant position. It was less than 20 minutes long and I feel like I answered all the questions fairly well. However, I’ve left other interviews feeling way more optimistic than I did this one and not gotten the job. So I have no idea how to feel about it. It’s out of my hands.
- Apollo (2007–2019). My family got Apollo in May 2007 when I was just about to finish up 8th grade. He was my younger brother’s dog. I’ve always had a love-hate relationship with our German Shepherd. I love dogs, but Apollo has always been so difficult. We weren’t allowed to treat him like we did our little dogs. He was very strong, so we had to be careful with him. He was always so serious and a nervous wreck. But he definitely grew on me in his later years and I grew to appreciate him so much. Anyway, his breed is prone to hip dysplasia and Apollo’s been suffering for more than a couple of years with it. It doesn’t help that he broke one of his front legs a few years ago (somehow unbeknownst to us). Friday morning, after a week of him having restless nights, my mom decided it was time we let him go. We always knew we wanted him to be able to walk out of our house for the last time with dignity.
I’m still a little bit in shock that I saw him for the last time this morning. In spite of everything, he was such a happy guy. I honestly thought we might have him at least a month or two more. I may do another post about him, just because there is so much I could say. He’s our last childhood dog. His death marks an end of an era. This house is never going to be the same again without him. In many ways, things will be a lot easier, but there’s going to reminders of his absence at every corner that we pass where he is not blocking our way.
On my monthly log section of my bullet journal, I was able to look at the month and think about the blog content I hoped to produce this month. A part of me wishes I could create an ambitious blog schedule and stick to it each week, but it’s not realistic for me. I can’t promise to read a book each week just so I have a review to share. I can’t promise to do enough Skillshare courses each week to warrant a blog post on them every Tuesday.
I like having the opportunity to be flexible with what I post, but I do want to become more consistent. So my plan going forward will be to spread my blog posts out a little more evenly so that too many days do not go by without a post.
B L O G P O S T S
Last weekend I finished my reread Truly Devious and started The Vanishing Stair by Maureen Johnson, which came out on January 22, 2019. It was one of those rare moments in time that I absolutely cherish, when I have set aside time to read a book I’ve been anticipating, a book that doesn’t disappoint and, when finished, leaves me sad that it’s over but happy that it happened.
If you haven’t read these books yet, what exactly are you waiting for?!
My next read is likely to be King of Scars, but I’m still in appreciate mode for The Vanishing Stair, so I’m not in a hurry to jump into a new book. I may actually read some non-fiction first…
Next week might prove a little busy. There are two parades this month back-to-back. The first was more casual and happened this weekend. The second is more important because it is a judged competition. If our float places highly, our community center benefits with a monetary donation. So next week we will likely meet a lot outside of our regularly work hours. For me, that means clocking in and out at work THREE times. It’s all been a bit much to be completely honest.
I can’t wait for spring break. Although, that might be busy too…